Tuesday, January 14, 2014

In the summer of 2012 I made a commitment to read through the whole bible. Today, I'm 4 books in, in Numbers. At times I feel it's futile to continue this and at others I want to persevere and accomplish this! (Funny how hard it is to be motivated to read God's Word when I am fully on board to dedicate my life to Him)

Timing of this passage couldn't be more true. Numbers 26 is the second Census taken some years since the Israelites left Egypt (I believe? Still fuzzy on the timeline of things). Crazy that the count was over 600,000 people, who had safely travelled and been accounted for. My study notes state "It's a miracle that a whole nation could lose its entire adult population and maintain spiritual direction." 

Things must have looked bleak or hopeless, but God was at work in the quiet of things throughout all this time. I believe this is also something I'm being taught now. I have a God that has performed GRAND miracles, yet I still doubt His plans for me at times. Being still and patient in this time in my life take some pruning.

I've been a nurse for four months now, and on my own without a preceptor for two. It seems like a long time and I should have things figured out by now, but that's incredibly far from the truth. Time has flown by and finding the right ways to balance my freetime off work, sleep schedule, and other activities has been a challenge. Work is mentally taxing and emotionally draining. Some days, I just curl up in my room and try to forget.